Personal

I remember school telling me dreams originated in the right hemisphere.1 Dreaming involves both hemispheres and we’ve still got a lot to figure out about it. The subconscious has such interesting ways of talking. I’m not well tuned into the complexities of my own emotions. Analyzing my own dreams helps me figure out where I’m at. There are dream dictionaries out there where they will tell you what the symbols mean but fortunately, we’re not simple enough for dream dictionaries to work.

Speaking of the time of year, I wrote a three day Halloween centered holiday festival thing last year. It’s kind of a set of rituals for reconnecting with the parts of your personal community you need to reconnect with.

I wrote it for a particular audience and I have a different audience this year. I’ll try to re-write it for this year along with an explanation of why I think it’s important to have something like it. But not today.

I didn’t forget I have a blog. I just got tied up on writing. I wrote a bunch of words and it kind of ate up all my blogging time. Not to mention my relaxing time and my time for all the other things outside of the day job. I tend to do a lot of thinking on my commute. Sometimes I’m just planning out projects or my week. Other times, I’m thinking about how to do life differently.

I had a pretty bad writing week last week. I got plenty of sleep though. Lots of unscheduled naps. There’s only so much you can do emotionally and physically. I guess I did all I could do in and between commutes.

I didn’t update this blog either. 🎉 In a way, I’ve had a bad few weeks on a lot of fronts.

In the past, a dry spell of a week (or even a few days) could turn into a quitting point pretty easily. Lately, I’ve been better about not quitting when I break a streak. Did I accidentally learn some secret? I kind of doubt it. If I did, it’s totally subconscious and I don’t have any useful way of communicating it.

Maybe it’s just something I picked up as a part of getting older.

Again, not useful.

But maybe what is useful is this: No one has all the answers. Even on a single, very specific topic, no one has all the answers.

When I work too hard for too long, I can end up with a bit of a crash. Sometimes it means I don’t have energy to do anything else. Sometimes it means I have a lower threshold before I cry at the drop of the hat or let anger show more easily.

And sometimes it means taking a nap. Naps are bad because I have insomnia and a nap can throw me into a two or three week cycle of disrupted sleep.