Content note: Food mention.

Recently, I went on a bit of a rant on Mastodon about a problem in our culture about blaming people who lack certain resources for their lack of having those resources. Victim blaming. It’s all over everything in western culture. The two examples I used were getting sufficient sleep1 and coping skills/strategies2. I don’t know how clear it was from my toots but I wasn’t coping well when I wrote it.

Update: Upgrade successful.

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I’m upgrading my OS today. A big update. This is going to break some of my tools … hopefully not Hugo (what I make this blog with) but it’s still a possibility.

If I appear to be gone for longer than usual, you can check in with me on Mastodon.

I’ve been struggling to cope with all my time constraints while dealing with a lack of energy. It’s an old struggle, not a new one. I keep deciding “I’ll make this a light chores weekend” and then I feel exhausted at the end of the “light chores.” I wrote out the list of what I was doing. It wasn’t light or short. And I still haven’t found a way to pare that list down to something more manageable.

There’s a concept I learned from meditation called Beginner’s Mind. In a way, it’s about seeing things with fresh eyes but it’s also about approaching whatever you’re doing as if you were a beginner. Even when you’re an expert or you’re at an advanced level in that topic.

I’ve been putting off making something I’ve wanted for a long time because I didn’t have a sewing machine and didn’t have any experience using one. After lots of research and watching videos, I finally got my sewing machine this week. I used the Quick Guide to set it up, cut a piece of scrap, and sewed a 2.5 inch long seam. It mostly went great.

Beginner’s Luck, it turned out.